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...and promptly remembered why it took me so long to get a tumblr to begin with.

Don’t get me wrong, this is very mild compared to some of the shit that goes on there, but I’m not typically party to it. I have to censor myself a lot though for that peace and quiet. (I guess it’s a good thing I’m not super in vested in most megafandoms.)

My first reaction to this was to be super earnest and engage. Expand on what I meant to say, have a discussion. Maybe they misunderstood? But let’s be real. No one misunderstood anything here and it’s no use engaging with someone who doesn’t want a discussion and just wants to be immature and snide.

My second instinct was to snarl back about lack of reading comprehension or something. But that’s just immature and likely to spiral out of control, so I chose to just ignore her.

The reason I’m posting here, other than to vent my frustration, is because this whole thing has been a lot more hurtful than I’d expected it to be. The thing is, I really like Molly. I like her as she always was, crush on Sherlock and all. But the reason I like her has nothing to do with her crush and I’m really annoyed at the implication that I thought Molly was only good enough as someone who was there to blush over Sherlock.

The thing is, Molly’s me in a lot of ways. I’m not very science-y and I wouldn’t choose to work in a morgue, but…I’m also shy and quiet and well-meaning if socially awkward and smart-but-not-cocky and, yes, I fall hard for the wrong guys sometimes. And every f-ing time someone discounts Molly as just Sherlock’s number one fangirl it takes away all these other aspects of her: Molly as a friend, as a colleague, as a professional in her own right. The only thing that changed about Molly in the Special is that she dressed like a man (supposedly to be able to get the job) and didn’t have a crush on Sherlock (as far as we know). Oh, yea, she was also super abrasive. But other than dressing different, not being in love and being rude…what exactly is there that suddenly makes Molly so much more of a character? Actually, taking the special separately, we know much less about Special!Molly than regular!Molly but somehow she is now more her own character because she’s not in love with Sherlock and she cross-dresses?

I know that comments on Molly aren’t personal attacks on me or anything. But sometimes I can’t help but take it to heart because none of the things that make Molly recognizable and relatable to me seem to mean anything to these people. In fact, someone like her is hardly her own character, apparently. So, what about someone like that in RL? Are they somehow less their own person for…having a crush? IDK. It sounds stupid, I know, but somehow the whole thing just got to me.